Monday, February 20, 2012

Iam not a CRIMINAL!

You are not Good...My thoughts chase me.They blame me..I fight with my thoughts!Is it my mistake to trust people a lot? Is it a mistake to care a lot? Is it a fault to be with a thing or creature which I like?

I agree I am not good always.I too have done few mistakes.I too have hurted people!But its not a crime ,coz I have not done them wantedly.Sometimes some things happen..We will be in such a happy state that we forget about the future circumstances!!!

I don't know why tears come in my eyes..I really don't know what I am missing! The bloody feelings are not in our control is the thing I always tell to myself..

I always think of being very good to others.It gives me a personal satisfaction,not for the sake of others,but its for my own sake...its my opinion. But being good is too much difficult.I have learnt it from experience.Pain is too much common in  being good..

See,you care for a person..he/she never does it to you.If you want to be good,you should still care for the person!Its too much difficult!At last I am a human and I look for something in return!

Sometimes you like a creature too much.its qualities,characteristics impress you!but still If you want to be good,You should leave that creature..Even if there is no fault/mistake in you, situations demand to be away from the thing you like!

Most important is,I am talking about "Being Good", it doesn't mean ,people judging me so...I am  talking being good in front of myself..in front of my conscience!in front of my Lord!!
But For the personal satisfaction which I get For "Being Good" ,I need to face dissatisfactions, a many.I need to do few things which are not supposed to be done according to rules of the world!

Finally,I gave an answer to myself!you will be getting returns.......!true!May be not from the people you cared!It may be in some other form!You will be for sure get noticed by the lord,my lord....ALLAH!
Anyways I am HIS Favourite and he will never let me down!

Ambiguity in Feelings....is the reason that what I wrote would be structureless and meaningless!!
People may call Mad..But Iam proud to be mad..because i think its an uncommon thing!So,UNIQUE........which I love to be!!

2 comments:

  1. I am looking myself while reading this.....!!!

    I tried to give a way for my unspoken feelings to pair-up as words. But I totally Confused and Failed. In the mean, you succeed!! Have a nice journey..!!

    Really Nice...!!! I love the narration...!! I love your feelings...!!!

    After all, both are travelling on the same boat...!!

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